Honestly...

I know things are supposed to be hard. 
This life was never promised to be easy. 
Quite the opposite.
But right now... I feel like I can't take much more. 
I feel like I'm slipping back to a place I never want to go.
A place that is too familiar.
Somewhere that scares me...
Things in my personal life....
Things in my home life...
Things in every aspect.
I feel like I'm about to break because I can't hold it all by myself.
I know I can give it to God...
But I'm having trouble giving everything up...
So right now with tears slowly falling...
I'm admitting that I am weak.
I cannot do this on my own.
I am beyond trying to hide behind my pride and I'm admitting my need for help.
So right here and now... I'm asking for prayer. 
Much prayer. 
Tonight will be hard, but just bearable enough to make it through.
Tomorrow I will wake up, and it will be hard... But not too hard.
Today was too hard for me... and I foolishly tried to take it on alone.
But... I need someone else's hand and guidance.
My own is not sufficient. 
Lord, hold me in Your hand.