I haven't blogged in a very long time. I honestly don't particularly want to write right now, but I think it will be beneficial for me. Writing has been difficult for me lately. Very difficult. So maybe I can get a few things out now. We shall see.
When I think of life lately not much comes to mind. It's all pretty gray... Nothing worth remembering.. Monotonous. When I think of life and the past I think in colors. My memories are color coated based on the feelings or overall theme of that time in my life. I can't see what color I am in when I am in it, it takes a while to look back and see the color in hindsight.
So right now I don't know what color I am in. I can sure look back the past four months or so and see the color I lived in though. Gray. Charcoal. They were dark months because I allowed my actions to go unchecked, my heart to go untended, and my thoughts to wander.
These are things that I am working on. It's difficult and I'm not sure all of me is in it yet.
I long for my memories to be orange again.
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